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browneyes
Texas
mom, nurse, firefighter
Interests: As my one line bio states, I am a mother, a nurse for almost 20 yrs now, and I volunteer as a firefighter in my community. I love the outdoors, music(still a rocker after all these years), picnics, Texas Holdem poker, cooking, friends, and so many other things there are just too many to list.
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Hi sweetie, I am so sorry that Gina had to tell you that the man you love is not the one you will be with. I know how hard it must be to face that truth. But now is the time to pick yourself up and go on. I also know that you dont feel you can ever start over, but you can. It takes time. I am doing so much better now that I have let go and not looking at pictures and staying in the past. I have found a new passion and through that new passion I have found new friends. I have been happier the last couple of weeks than I have in a long time. But I also have to say that your reading with Gina does give me hope for my predictions to come true even though they look hopeless at this time. But I have learned over this past very hard year that yearning and hoping and waiting does no good. It doesnt bring the good things any faster. All the readers here tried to tell me that but I was so heartbroken and devastated that I couldnt see it. Now I do. Please open yourself up to new things or something you used to enjoy but had put on hold. We all have something that we love or loved and getting involved again or as a new involvement works wonders. I wish you all the happiness that can ever come your way. Luv ya girl, browneyes
Toggle Commented Nov 20, 2009 on Customer Roundtable at California Psychics®
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Yes ST, I have truly been trying to enjoy what I have and do things I enjoy right now. I know obcessing wont bring it any sooner. I guess I thought it would for a long time but I realize now if I had let it go a long time ago, we would probably be talking and maybe even seeing each other when it could be arranged by now. It is my stupid attempt at keeping him away from other women that ruined it all. I was so childish. I hate that I did it and now the consequences are biting me in the butt, lol. I deserve it. But he also deserves to be alone and be rejected the way he did me. I go through periods of being remorseful for my actions then I go through anger towards him for leading me on and making me feel like a fool. I always hated being made a fool of. Guess thats how he made me feel even though I do feel that he loved me. Who knows?????? But please know I am doing better and if and when he does contact me, I think I will be stronger and let it start over as friends. Thats how it has to be. But Im not holding my breath. I am ready to face my life alone if that is the way it is to be. I'll be ok. I always have been and I will continue. Have a wonderful holiday sweetheart. And I will check out the vacation thing. Wish you could take it with me.
Toggle Commented Nov 15, 2009 on Customer Roundtable at California Psychics®
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I have to tell you Gina. I have no idea what you told Curious but it sounds like she didnt get the info she was hoping for. That just throws me back to the readings I have received. Some have said no but most have said yes to my question. And the most popular like you and Red and several others have always said that I will have another chance. I hate that Curious got bad news but when I hear of others hearing the truth even though they wanted the opposite it gives me more hope. I am so sorry Curious. I so wish your reading had been more positive for you. My heart goes out to you and I pray for your peace and happiness.
Toggle Commented Nov 15, 2009 on Customer Roundtable at California Psychics®
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Hi Gina, Thank you so much. You are such a sweet lady. Maybe I'll try to get into your call back for Christmas Day if you're working here at CP. That would be a great present for me to talk to you. Im trying really hard to carry on. Its ok most of the time. The evenings are the worst. Oh well. I'll get used to it. Havent been out with anyone in about 3 or 4 months now. Guess Im coming to that acceptance of being a mom and thats all, lol. Maybe thats what I was meant to be. Just do for others and get my happiness there. My patient is really good for me, she is so inspirational and has become my best friend. God knew what he was doing when he sent her to me and I thank him for her. I hope your holidays are filled with happiness and laughter. Isnt angel4 sweet? I love her already. She sounds like she has so much going on in her life and so many struggles but she is handling them beautifully I think. And she has a wisdom that she doesnt realize. I hope everything works out for her and she finds the peace she needs. Happy Thanksgiving Gina. Maybe we can all get into our jeans after the holiday, lol. Im trying but at a standstill right now. Oh well, if the man that comes into my life doesnt like it I guess he can look somewhere else, right? LOL. Take care sweet friend. browneyes P.S. You have no idea how special you make me feel when you write to me like this. Thank you. And I am still hopeful, just not holding my breath. Im sure you know what I mean.
Toggle Commented Nov 15, 2009 on Predictions Update at California Psychics®
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Hi angel4, Yes sweetie, this is blogging, lol. You are soooo cute and you make my day. As for the question about blogging etiquette, I guess CP does prefer we keep our messages short but I am the worst cause I write such long ones. But when I get started it seems I just cant stop. You sound like such a wise lady and have some really good advice of your own. And also, no I am not psychic or and intuitive persay, I think I just have the same intuition as everyone else. I have had dreams that were telling me certain things but never could connect what they meant until after the fact. This seemed to run in my family as my maternal grandparents had visions while awake that always turned out to be a warning of some kind of something happening with a family member. I do want to tell you this. Even though our identity is hidden with us using screen names, these messages are available to anyone that logs into TypePad even if they dont subscribe to CP. So just dont be too graphic or too descriptive so someone can recognize you. Have a wonderful day angel and I will talk to you later. Hugs.
Toggle Commented Nov 13, 2009 on Touch and Go Love at California Psychics®
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I agree with you ST. I really dont see why it couldnt be arranged for us to exchange contact information since we are adults and make our own decisions. But I have already suggested this and it was ignored and I dont even know if it ever got posted. Oh well. I would love to visit your island. It sounds so great and just the kind of place I would love. Wouldnt we have a great time walking the beach and cooking together and just sharing our stories. We could laugh, cry, get all our emotions out and know we understood each other. That would be so great. And it would make for a wonderful vacation for me, lol. But I also agree that you shouldnt say too much here as we now know that TypePad is open to the world. I am soooo glad I didnt use my real name as my ID here. I am feeling better but now and then I read the testimonials that are left for some of my favorite psychics and I cant help but wonder why their predictions came true but not mine. Will this nightmare ever come to an end????? My oldest son was in the kitchen with me tonight and we kind of got on tothe subject of how my life had turned out. I think I went too far with telling him how I felt about my station in life now. Then he said he knew what the real problem was and that it was "J". I said yes it was. But when I tried to just open up and ask him some things that I thought he may have an answer to since he is a man, he found a reason to retreat to his room. I should have known better. Guess that man will always be in my heart and in my mind. I truly dont understand why I cant just forget him, I know he has forgotten me. Poor angel4....I know how she feels. I cant believe I even tried to give her advice when I cant follow it myself. I wish I could just pack a bag and leave this place and start all over. But I cant. Its kind of like Red told me, Im stuck. That is actually what she told me. And she is right. I only hope and pray that she was right about the other things she said. Im sorry, here I go again, lol. You know me, I never know when to stop. But no one to vent to you know. I better get to bed now, work tomorrow. Such a vicious cycle we are caught in, lol. Guess thats life when we didnt plan too well. Have a wonderful weekend ST and I will be checking in. Bye.
Toggle Commented Nov 13, 2009 on Customer Roundtable at California Psychics®
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Hi Fran, No I havent started my Thanksgiving shopping yet but I probably will this weekend. Since my neighbors are coming, I probably wont have to worry about desserts, she will make pies I'm sure. But my 12 yr old has requested a banana cake. I made it recently when I had an abundance of bananas on hand then he wanted it for his birthday so that was two in the last couple of months. They seem to just love it and it doesnt last long so I guess I will make another for Thanksgiving. And Christmas?????? Ugh. I dont even want to think about it yet, lol. I have gotten the youngest son his gift already but the two grown sons are harder to buy for. I think we will probably discuss things and maybe get something for the entire family and not buy for each other this year other than very small token gifts. I feel the same as you about this past year. When looking back I guess it has gone fast but it seemed so slow while living it. I was way too focused on things I shouldnt have been and always waiting for an email or phone call that never came. I refuse to let next year be ruined or filled with tension and upset over someone that clearly doesnt want me in his life. Oh well. Time to move on. Now if I can just not be wishing for him to be lonely and miserable, I will be doing very well. Kind of hard not to though when I honestly feel that is what he deserves for being such a liar about such important things. Anyway, I am looking forward to having my family and friends with me over the holidays. I havent lost anymore pounds but at least I havent put any back on. So if I watch it close until the holiday and then get right back on track, maybe I will be looking good for the summer next year. Happy Holidays to all. browneyes
Toggle Commented Nov 12, 2009 on Customer Roundtable at California Psychics®
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Hey ST, how strange that Nudee and Oldee have spoken. Does Nudee know anything about you and Oldee and your past? Hmmmmmm. Very interesting. Cant wait to hear what happens with this. Hope all is well with you. I am feeling better and trying really hard to stay strong now. Thinking a lot about the holidays coming up. And also thinking of next year and about what kind of vacation I can take. Will really have to start putting some money back now and hope I can. But at least I have my high school friend I can visit in the mountains when I just need to relax with a good view. Have a great day girl and I'll talk to you later. Hugs.
Toggle Commented Nov 12, 2009 on Customer Roundtable at California Psychics®
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Hi Fran, also ST and everyone else here. Want to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving. You're really on the ball Fran to be planning your Christmas dinner already, lol. I havent even made too many plans for Thanksgiving yet. Think we will just fry a turkey and have the dressing, mashed potatoes, mac and cheese, and some vegetable dishes. Having my neighbors over for dinner that day. An older couple that have no family here and we have all adopted each other. They are so sweet and my grandson calls them Papa and Grandma, lol. Also,I am feeling better but received a notice of someone new following me here at TypePad that is going through basically the same thing. I wondered if maybe some of you could take the time to go to Touch and Go Love and respond to her too. Imagine me being in the spot of giving encouragement to someone else, lol. I hope I gave her good advice. She sounds like she really needs friends right now. Her name here is angel4. Keep her in your prayers. I know you have all been wonderful to me and maybe now we can bring her some hope and encouragement. Thank you all.
Toggle Commented Nov 12, 2009 on Predictions Update at California Psychics®
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Hi angel4, I am so sorry I havent responded to you sooner. I hope I can help you. First off I want to tell you, you have received one reading as far as I can tell that told you that you are soulmates and he is confused but does love you. Hold onto that and please dont spend more money on numerous readings if you are not financially able. I made the mistake of getting readings so often and with so many different psychics here that I am so confused and disappointed. And also, whatever your psychic told you to do, whether it be sit and wait, or whatever, do it. Follow the advice as closely as you can. I didnt and messed everything up. I can tell from your message that you are as in love as I am with your man. It hurts so bad to not be with the one that you love. But as I have been told, we have to go on with our lives and not dwell on what we dont have. You have children that need you to be there for them. Put your focus on them right now. I know how easy it is to shutdown and have done that myself for now. I am not dating nor do I want to at this time. Allow yourself time to heal. I didnt, I rushed out into the dating world as I knew he was doing the same thing, and it just didnt work out for me. I wish I had some magic words to make you feel better but I dont. I have discovered it is up to us to bring ourselves out of the funk that we fall into. I will be here for you anytime you want to talk and I will respond at my first opportunity. It really helps to know you have a friend and you have found one sweetheart. I can tell you from experience that this is going to hurt a long time if you let it. Something else I want you to think about. I dont mean to be harsh but......you said he didnt give you much money to call your own, I dont know if you worked or not but if you were dependent on him then that was not right of him to do that. You also found evidence of his infidelity. Do you really want that in your life? This man made a committment to you and he should have honored it. My man never made a committment, we were just dating and I thought we were heading in the right direction, but I read too much into what he said to me. I let my dreams take over. Please find something you enjoy doing and focus on you and your child. If you feel that you really need to talk to another psychic I can give you a few names and you read their testimonials and see which one you have a feeling for. Seek out clairvoyance and not mediumship. Ive found this works best for me. A few of my favorites are Seha--she is very sweet and uplifting. Nina is great and seems to see you for who you are and the situation at hand, dont give information to her other than your name if she asks and the area of your life you want her to look at. Gail is another of my favorites and has predicted things that I have seen come true. She is a remote viewer and she asks that you tell her absolutely nothing other than your name, birthdate, and place of birth and the same for the person you are asking about. I look forward to hearing from you again and I am here for you. Hugs to you sweetie, I'll be thinking of you.
Toggle Commented Nov 12, 2009 on Touch and Go Love at California Psychics®
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Nov 12, 2009
Thank you Jesse for thinking about me. I know I used to be so strong. I never let anyone hurt me like this man did. But then, I never felt about anyone like I did this man. And like I told some of the others here, I never felt that he completed me, as I dont believe in someone else completing you. But he did add so much to my life and I had such a feeling of being at home and that I had found my place. Right now, I really have mixed feelings. I still love him very much, and I guess I probably always will. I think too that what bothers me so much is the fact that I seemed to be able to sense when he was being the least little bit dishonest and he very rarely was. And the fact that he could look me square in the eye and say he loved me and talk of a future and share very intimate details of his life with me, then to just end it in a split second. I have feelings of love for him, then I have feelings of hate. Not for him, but for how he has made me feel. I have pretty much given up on dating. I resigned from the dating sites and now I only play poker online. I meet some fun people and have a good time chatting while we play. I know everyone tells me I deserve better and someone will come along, but I sometimes wonder if he has left me in the same spot he said he was in. Being so hurt by someone that the heart never fully heals enough to let anyone else in. You wouldnt believe some of the thoughts I have had over the past few months. Things I never thought would enter my mind. I guess with me being older now and seeing the sags and wrinkles on my face just add to the hopelessness sometimes. I see so many women my age and older that still have nice skin, no wrinkles or sags, and I notice the pretty ones getting the attention at the poker tables. Its very obvious what the men want. And its not me. A good personality doesnt go very far these days. For friends its ok, but not for love. But you see Jesse? Some of you ladies tell me they see him coming back into my life and us getting another chance, then others say no. When I first called CP, I was under the impression that I would get a look into the future and not just counseling. Not sure now what it was. But at least I feel that I have made new friends that I can talk to here and I also know I am not alone in this situation. There are so many lonely people out there and we are all home alone, playing cards or whatever online. The chat lines and poker rooms are the social place anymore. The internet has ruined all our lives I think from a romantic viewpoint. Too many beautiful women playing their games cause they know they can get any one of the men that are chasing them. Leaves the rest of us out. I get offers from some of the men but they are not the kind of man I want to be with. So I have decided it is better to be alone than to feel that I have made a bad decision and settled for less than I want. So keep your fingers crossed for me Jesse that my card playing improves and I can learn strategies and be able to make money at something I truly do enjoy. Its happened for a lot of people, why not me. I know it sounds silly and I would in no way risk what I already have to play but like they say, anything is possible so why not this. And sweet revenge would be for me to win a championship while you know who sits on the sidelines after getting beat out and see me be the winner. HaHa. I would love it.
Toggle Commented Nov 8, 2009 on Predictions Update at California Psychics®
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I hope you're right about ST and Oldee Gina. And I hope the marriage you see for me a few years down the road is with you know who. Now,what Im kind of wondering about me now is this. Wonder if my new interest in poker will prove to be profitable for me in the future. It has been for a lot of people even after just a year or so of playing. What say you wise lady? lol
Toggle Commented Nov 8, 2009 on Customer Roundtable at California Psychics®
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Thank you my friend for your concern. I have really been down lately but I think it wasnt the lack of contact from "J" but more like kicking myself for trying to manipulate and rush things. I thought I was so smart but turns out I wasnt. I was childish and immature. Guess I just finally realized that he had reached out to me with just that request to be friends at the online site. I messed it up so Ive been mad at myself. What I should have done last year when he broke up with me was just say, "Ok, have a nice life" and ignored him when he continued to text and email. He would have missed me then and probably come back soon thereafter. But I was insecure and answered his texts and emails immediately and didnt display confidence in myself as I should have. I still love him and always will but I also realize that he really is the loser here. He may end up with some woman that is more beautiful on the outside and look good on his arm, but I can guarantee she will never love him or stand beside him like I would have. Guess we all just have so many tears to shed after something like this and I have been getting rid of mine. The last few readings I have gotten gave a timeline for contact that is a few weeks away now. Not holding my breath at all but at least if I dont hear from him in some form, I will know its over. (Like I shouldnt have known it already,lol) Take care everyone, hope good things happen for all of you. And know that I am getting better, its just taking time.
Toggle Commented Nov 8, 2009 on Predictions Update at California Psychics®
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This article hits home with me. Like Darcy, my mother came to me in a dream in the spring of 1990. She simply walked up to me and took my hand, looked at me and said "I'll die this summer." Sure enough,July 25 1990, she died. I was in nursing school at the time and had told several of my classmates of the dream. They all remembered it and commented with amazement of the insight I had. I was just heartbroken. Then in 2000, my dad was told that the cancer that he had battled for so long had returned in his bones. I took care of him for several months. I put in a full days work every morning before going to my paying job. The embarrassment he went through with me helping him to void in the urinal and clean him up when he soiled the bed was awful but I was the only one to do it. Unlike Mary Jean, I had two brothers, one that never came around and one that lived 4 hrs away so he had an excuse to not be there. When I was realizing that my dad was really ill this time, I had a dream about my deceased uncle that was my dads youngest brother. He came to me in a dream too and told me that he loved me. After my dads passing in March of 2001, the dream of my uncle kept popping into my mind. Until one day while thinking of that dream, a little voice told me to go to the cemetary and look at the headstones. I did. My dad said his last words to me and closed his eyes on March13th and died on March15th. My uncle had died March 13th of 1980. After I connected the dates and knew then that my uncle had been giving me a timeline of when I would lose my dad I didnt have that dream plague me like it had before. My mom was 40 when I was born and it seemed she was always ill with one thing or another including breast cancer. Numerous hospital stays for her and then my dad after my Moms passing. I am so glad that I could be here for my parents and never had to go through putting them in nursing homes or anything like that. I just wish I had known my dreams were really telling me something instead of passing them off as just dreams.
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This is to Queensgirl and ST mainly but to all that have shown support to me. Please dont worry about me. I am trying to not think about you know who so much but he is there anyway. I do pretty good most days but some evenings are so awful when I go to bed. I guess I tend to wonder why I am going through this and why God allowed me to meet this man in the first place if he wasnt going to be a part of my life. Ive been through so much and tolerated so much and gave of myself so much all of my adult life. I thought "J" was my reward. I didnt lose myself in him and I never felt that he completed me, but I was never more content in my life. I felt true happiness even when we were so many miles apart. Just knowing that he was thinking of me and missing me made me feel loved. Like QueensGirl, most of the psychics that I felt really connected to tell me that no matter how bad it looks now, we will have an opportunity to reconnect. I have had three readings with one of the most popular readers here, she is almost impossible to talk to. She gave me the same prediction that he would be coming back. I went ahead and asked her if she saw anyone else coming into my life. She said "It wont do any good, this man is the man you will end up with." And the remote viewer I talk to now and again and has seen so many things that have proven true regarding physical appearance, pain in certain joints, a bad knee. Lots of things. She told me not long ago that even with all my manipulation and snooping (that I'm not doing anymore) she doesnt think it messed anything up, just postponed things. She saw him walking toward me. She thinks this indicates his return and gave me a timeline that matched some others. Im giving this til the end of this year to hear something positive from him. At least a new beginning for a friendship. If I dont hear from him by the end of this year, I will do whatever I have to do to rid myself of him. I would also like to congratulate Amor on her new position. It sounds like some of her predictions have come true as far as her job search. I know she will be wonderful in her new position. Thats something else Ive been thinking about, a job change of some sort. Just dont know which direction to go right now. Thank you all and I hope all goes well with your new houseguests ST. Looking forward to hearing some updates from you all too. And thank you Fran for everything and I am so happy that you're seeing Warty occasionally. Enjoy sweetie.
Toggle Commented Nov 5, 2009 on Predictions Update at California Psychics®
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Hi Jesse, So glad to hear from you. I know the symptoms of menopause can be so devastating and Im sure thats what some of mine are. But some of them are the waiting for the things to happen that were predicted. Im still waiting for Mr. Hubba Hubba. LOL. He hasnt shown up yet. Im sitting here at home nowadays. Have given up on the dating sites. What a crock. They are just a meat market. Not what I am hoping for. I know you said I would see myself in a different light and see the man I asked you about differntly too. I do know that I deserve someone that can love me like I love them, but Jesse, I still love that man. No matter what he has done or how he has ignored me. I had unconditional love for him. And I am beginning to hate myself for it. I cant believe I am still thinking of him and feeling the way I do about him. But I do appreciate you messaging me. I hope you are enjoying your time back in Texas. Please pray for me now that I will come to accept my station in life. The one where I take care of everyone else and then die and go away. To be honest, I'll be glad when its over. Im sorry, but I honestly feel like I am slowly dying. The heart bleeds slowly, lol. Wish it was faster.
Toggle Commented Nov 5, 2009 on Predictions Update at California Psychics®
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Yes Amor, I read your prediction update and I am thrilled for you. Makes me so happy that something is coming true for you. Your new job sounds so great and I wish you well. I hope all is well with you and your children. You are a wonderful and beautiful woman, I can tell from your messages here. Keep up the good work sweetie. You have good things coming your way. I will keep you in my thoughts and please keep me in yours that happiness and contentment finds me. I sometime wonder if we are ever content when our lives havent turned out like we had envisioned. Another bad night for me I guess but I'll be better in the morning. I've truly turned loose of the snooping that I was doing before but now no matter how much I try, I have thoughts I shouldnt have of "him" being with others. Its been over a year since I saw him face to face. He should be in my past by now. Its been seveal days since Ive been here at CP checking in. Im trying so hard to focus on other things. God I wish I had never met that man. He is out there right now, talking to other women and trying to date them and trying to find the love of his life when she is sitting here in er kitchen, writing blogs. LOL. What a joke. I cant believe it. Sorry Amor, I do wish you well and I will continue to check in here because I truly do want to know how everything turns out for you. I hope it is all you hope for. Bless you sweetie and all the other women at CP.
Toggle Commented Nov 5, 2009 on Customer Roundtable at California Psychics®
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Yes Phillip, the commercial aspect of Christmas has almost ruined it for me. When I was a child, I got numerous gifts of course as I was the youngest and the only one left at home. But my fondest memories are of my mother baking for days before the holiday to prepare all of our favorite treats. Cakes, pies, cookies, candies, and of course the traditional feast of ham and turkey and all the trimmings. And unlike the childrens stockings these days being stuffed with more toys and DVD's, mine was stuffed with apples and oranges, nuts of all kinds, hard candies, and peppermint sticks. I guess because we didnt have the fresh fruit routinely except the peaches and apricots that my mom grew herself. The house smelled so good during that time of year. My children and I have tried to get back to basics the last couple of years. We do buy a small gift of some sort for each other like a favorite movie or something but we get together as a family and decide on a family gift to ourselves. We all live together so it may be a new TV or something that we enjoy as a family. We have been talking about saving up one year to take a trip during the holidays. Spend that time together somewhere other than home so that we can enjoy some new experience together and have those memories forever. After all, Christmas to me is about enjoying family and friends and sharing love instead of material things. Those things fade away. The love between family members stays with you forever. As do the memories. Wonderful article and really makes you think. Thanks Phillip.
Toggle Commented Oct 29, 2009 on Give With Your Heart at California Psychics®
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Hi RG, Your statement that I seemed a bit down was an understatement, lol. I thought I was losing my mind. For three weeks I cried myself to sleep every night. Just seemed I couldnt help it. I even started taking a hand towel to bed with me. I really do think part of it is menopause. The mood swings and hot flashes and the whole bit. But your positive energy must be reaching me. I am feeling some better. Still think of "him" but Im sure I will for a very long time. It seems that every time I start trying to just let go and stop waiting for that big prediction to manifest, something small happens that was predicted. Not too long ago, probably a month or maybe a few weeks ago, one of the psychics here was talking to me and she has said that he will be back in my life. Well, during the reading she just kind of threw in that I was going to take a trip, but only a weekend thing. Guess what? My friend from high school has been wanting me to come visit her and her husband for a weekend for almost a year. She called last night and invited me up for this weekend. A weekend trip, just as predicted. What is funny is that I never mentioned anything at all to this reader, so where did that prediction come from? Also, two other readings from the past few months (different psychics by the way), one said I will hear something around someones birthday and the other said in six weeks. Well, that timeline of six weeks ends up right around someones birthday. No way they could have known of this birthdate at all. Kind of funny that the six week timeline hit in the same week as this girls birthday. So I am hopeful that even though everything seems so lost, that there will be a turnaround of some kind. But I think I am getting prepared for no contact too. Go with the flow, thats gonna be my new philosophy. Or at least Im gonna try to live that way. I agree with you that everything happens for a reason and maybe all that we are going through now is going to make things in our future better. Those darned learning experiences, lol. Hope to hear more updates from you and I hope to post some too. Hugs to all of you here, browneyes
Toggle Commented Oct 28, 2009 on Predictions Update at California Psychics®
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By the way Gina, You had written to me the other day and suggested maybe therapy to work through this thing. I have thought the same thing. I think my many calls to CP was sort of a therapy for me, especially with certain psychics. But this blog I think has helped me more than anything. And also my ceasing of snooping. It was really hard for a few weeks, the not knowing anything drove me crazy. But the last couple of days and all the supportive messages I got from my friends here really helped me. Then I read the post from the last couple of days, I think it was Examining your Ex. I even left some advice for someone that wrote in and her question hit home with me. Just think, ME leaving advice, lol. I hope I steered her correctly and would love for you to read and give your advice to her if I said anything wrong. I am feeling better the last couple of days and hope it continues. Not saying I love that scoundrel any less, but I do finally realize that I have to heal before I can have any kind of relationship. Im still not on the dating sites. Been resigned for several weeks now and it feels good to not get up in the morning or come home in the afternoons to check for messages from potential dates. Maybe I am taking my power back finally. I am truly doing my best to move on but I do wonder sometime if that karmic window has closed or is still open just a little. Guess time will tell huh. Thanks for everything Gina.
Toggle Commented Oct 27, 2009 on Customer Roundtable at California Psychics®
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Hey Gina, Thats great that you are still losing and eating better. I took the weekend off from the dieting since I had the birthday party for my son but I dont think I did any damage. Havent been to the gym in a few days but plan to get there this week as much as possible. The weather here is atrocious, raining almost every day and water is rising, standing everywhere. YUCK. Maybe you can ask your guides if I need to start building a big boat????LOL. Or maybe buy scuba gear? Good luck with the yard sale and getting through all the stuff you have to deal with now. That is a big job, been there, done that. And hello to all the rest of my friends here. Hope all is well with you all and have a great day. Luv ya all.
Toggle Commented Oct 27, 2009 on Customer Roundtable at California Psychics®
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Oh Heidi, I dont know how long your flame has been broken up with his ex but, I went through that last year. The first date that I had with this man, he told me about this woman and how she broke his heart. My heart went out to him. I dated him for six months thinking that he would get past it. I fell in love with him and at one point I let him know that her name came up way too often in our conversations. He swore he wasnt in love with her anymore but after six months, he still couldnt committ to me, not even in a minor way of just being exclusive. We broke up. Now I am the one that is heartbroken and feel that I am in the same situation that he was. Watch out Heidi. I could be wrong but sounds like your man is still very hung u on his ex. There will no room for you until he is over her. Walk away now with the explanation to him that you cannot fight this womans memory. Let him know that when he puts her behind him to let you know, MAYBE you will still be around. If he cares for you enough, he will deal with his issue and come back. If anyone disagrees with me, please tell Heidi differently but I wiah I had done this last year, maybe things would have worked out differently.
Toggle Commented Oct 27, 2009 on Examining Your Ex at California Psychics®
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Hi everyone. Monday morning here, ugh. Another week. I want to thank you all for your messages and being so supportive of me. Also to apologize for my being so immature and irrational behavior. Love makes us do crazy things alright. I am so happy for Fran and Cubes that they at least talk to the ones they care about so deeply. Gina keeps reminding me that her guides said 3 or 4 yrs before marriage for me, but marriage was not my priority. Just wanted us to be together, sharing time and ourselves. Guess Im at the point of wondering if he really is the one. I think ST and I go through the same thing with the other men that show interest. They are fun to talk to and make nice friends but if the "animal" attraction isnt there, I lose interest really fast. And I have yet to meet anyone that really sparks my interest or can make me feel anything from just holding hands or looking into each others eyes. I wonder sometime if I am expecting too much or if those things I mentioned are unrealistic. But I have heard elderly couples talk about those kinds of things, and how they still felt so much love when looking at their partner. He was the only one I was ever with that I could gaze upon as he slept or engaged in things that he enjoyed and I felt so much love and happiness that he was enjoying himself. Made me happy to see him happy. Anyway, I am feeling better I think. Had a good weekend. A firefighter challenge on Saturday with 5 or 6 depts competing with each other doing the things we do. In the relay, I was at the top of a 3 story building and when tagged by one of my partners I had to pull a 50ft hose, that was rolled and secured, up the 3 stories by a rope. It weighed probably around 30 lbs or so. Not sure, but it got heavier and heavier the higher it got off the ground. But it felt great to hear some of the people watching cheering me on and one guy inparticular was yelling so loud for me to keep it up, that I was close.LOL He is a hoot. I remember him yelling "(My name), dont give up, you're almost there". Kind of fit what is going on with my "J" situation huh. But after the challenge, I came home and we had a birthday celebration for my oldest son. All my kids and the two grandchildren and my neighbors/best friends came and we ate chili, pizza, stew, cornbread, and strawberry cake. Had numerous drinks, lol. And played poker into the wee hours of the morning. Had a great time and lots of laughs. Another book, so sorry,lol. Have a great week girls. You are all so wonderful. Hugs to you all.
Toggle Commented Oct 26, 2009 on Customer Roundtable at California Psychics®
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I hope they are worth it too Almost There. You know I think so often about this man I love so much. I know he is not perfect and I know his shortcomings. He is a complete A-hole. And I do know that. But you know what? I loved him anyway. He is the first man I have ever known that I could look at him and see him for what he was and who he is and still love him. I truly dont understand it myself. I dont think I ever cross his mind anymore and it hurts so bad.Whats kind of funny is this. When he came to visit me last year and I was at the airport with hi putting him on the plane back home, he told me he loved me, but it was an emotional time. He walked through security and as I watched him the tought occurred to me that I would never see him again. I dismissed that thought when he texted me when he landed and when he got back to his apartment telling me he had gotten home and how much he already missed me. A week and a half later, he was out of my life. I know I am worth so much more, but I just cant feel anything for anyone anymore. I told my lifelong friend the other day that I think I may be losing my mind. This us just crazy. But I do know one thing. I never want to go through this again. I think it will be better to just be alone than to love someone and lose them again.Im tired of the pain and Im tired of the disappointment. I really think Im sinking into a depression. Or maybe Im already there. One thing is for sure though, I will never trust another man. I know there are good men out there, but I dont expect to meet them. I hope everything works out in your favor sweetie. I dont know what else to say. Just tired. And Fran Ihope you read this. I just dont feel like going to the other post again to to reply. I loge you too sweetie, I think you are a wonderful woman and you have been such a friend to me. Just as ST and all hte rest have been. I so hope you all get what you are dreaming of.
Toggle Commented Oct 25, 2009 on Predictions Update at California Psychics®
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