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I lost my boy to cancer at age 8, as well. He had lymphoma and lived only 3 months after getting diagnosed. It devastated me in ways I cannot describe. I know I don't have to describe it as you know all too well the feeling of having your heart ripped from your chest in such an awful manner. I plan on donating to your cause towards the end of the week (payday) and also invite you to help me spread the word about Canine Cancer. I've also toyed with the idea of writing a book about my experience with my boy, Petey, as well as the experiences of others who've dealt with this. There are several different roads one can take when fighting this awful devil and I would like to find people who have taken different approaches (i.e.-chemo, prednisone, holistic etc)and tell their story. I did so much online research and I think all of that should be in ONE place for those who need it. Just throwing it out there. I've been where you are and being proactive helps relieve the grief. Many hugs to you, Anne and your boys.
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i'm sure you've heard all of this a thousand times, but i can't tell you how much i understand. It's been a year and a half and i still have moments where i miss him so bad and wish that i could just wake up from this long vivid nightmare in which he is nowhere to be found. It's good that you have Riley with you so you don't have to go through this alone. I have two children, myself, so i understand the need to 'be strong' for your children. Honestly, though, i shared my sadness with my children and let them know it was ok to cry and be sad and be angry. i also let them know that it's ok to NOT cry or be sad or angry. It's ok to smile and it's ok to laugh. It's ok to feel ok. It's ok to feel whatever you feel - you shouldn't hide it, just go through it and you will come out ok on the other side of it.
Toggle Commented Aug 27, 2009 on in which some comfort is found at WWdN: In Exile
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i know this pain all too well. A member of the family taken before their time. i lost my boy to cancer when he was 7. It wasn't never is. i don't know if you'll ever take the time to read this. I mean, how many times can you read a sympathy letter, regardless of the thought put into it. If, by chance, you do i am enclosing NOT the Rainbow Bridge, but the prayer that the vets gave to me when i went to pick up Petey's ashes. It made me cry even harder...and i really REALLY needed to cry...I mean REALLY cry. It was cleansing and necessary. I still shed tears from time to time... "Our Prayer" They say that memories are golden Well, maybe that is true. I never wanted memories, I only wanted you. A million times I needed you, A million times I cried. If love alone could have saved you, You never would have died. In life I loved you dearly, In death I love you still. In my heart you hold a place No one can ever fill. If tears could build a stairway And heartache make a lane, I'd walk the path to heaven And bring you back again. Our family chain is broken And nothing seems the same. But as God calls us one by one, The chain will link again. It still gets me teary eyed.
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