very cleverly made. i think each individual may see it differently, but whatever it is, i know that it has made some change in their life. i know it has with mine.

I guess that's what i need to do. be happy with myself and who i really am. and just get on with it when i get rejected. atleast its good to think that oneday something good is going to happen. even though it may just be wishful thinking. thank you for your advice diary keeper.

That is a really moving video.

but what if something terrible happened. do you believe that those things are meant to happen? don't you wish you could of done something? im not sure that people have a choice when they're trying to be accepted. that's what "sucks". not them but those making it harder for them to be themselves.

i know that im not alone. im asking for others with racial issues reading this blog to comment. please. what do you guys do? i do love it and myself. i am confident in who i am. it's just that others dont so that just makes it that one step harder. it's been ages and ages and nothing has changed. i could always move i guess where i "fit" in. isn't the world very strange. i was talking to a mate today and they said "i wish that i had direction-i knew where i was going in life. who i'll meet" etc. and then the other said "no way. id rather let it be ambiguous and whatever happens-it's meant to be" im not so sure myself. im currently just letting the days roll on by telling myself that i'll do this or that in the next day, week, year. so i guess that means i let the world decide my fate but im not sure if that's a good thing or not. it's so true. screaming and no one can hear me. but then you would think, all those people that are also screaming-why can't we hear them? why can't we all just scream together?

I think that I've tried to accept myself. and i have. it's just that when i realise others around me and how they are different..im not sure if i can accept myself because i feel like the real me isn't good enough. like friendships which can grow further into love. i asked a close male friend of mine if he would date me and he said no because of my race. it's a harsh world out there and i don't know if you've ever experienced racial issues but some people just make things so much harder. i know there are others around that might feel the same way. any advice?

i've tried it. analyzing. myself. i've crawled into my wounds and discovered where my fears truly lie. and it's the same as i've always thought. i let myself go, changed and let me be myself. let others see who i really was. met people. people prefer the other me. the true me is tucked away. not even my close friends know. in fact, no one does. she's secretly hiding, scared to come out and be disliked again. the cleansing can never begin.

just discovered blogs. and yourself. I love your photography and you are great to follow. Inspirational. and i'm sorry. hugs. :)