I was blessed with one birth child. When he was born I was on cloud 9 and climbing. Then came the horrible truth that his father had kidnapped him. The pain was unbearable, I never thought a heart could hurt so much. We were reunited through the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, within a year of my baptism, which in and of itself is a miracle! I also adopted another son when he was 5 days old...he truly was mine and I had such a great love for him, as well as for my firstborn. The first words out of my mouth when they placed him in my arms were "he's so beautiful" and I was definitely a gonner. It was instant love, with nothing comparable to equate it to, other than the love I had for my firstborn. My boys are 20 years apart, which speaks to the slow healing loosing a child brings. I have never once regretted my decision to adopt my son, and the love I have for him is equally as deep and abiding as the love I have for my birth son. Congratulations on the impending birth of your twins...you will know what heaven on earth feels like with three!