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Rita Arens
My name is Rita Arens. I like to write. A lot. Many pages.
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Thank you, Addy.
Toggle Commented 4 days ago on More Than Two at Surrender, Dorothy
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Welcome to my inner monologue!
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Thanks, Jenna.
Toggle Commented 6 days ago on The First Cool Night at Surrender, Dorothy
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Ani DiFranco was wrong to try to host a gathering in a Southern plantation, but she also taught me a lot about life as a writer. "I am struck by the mediocrity of my finest hour." "I don't know why red fades before blue, it just does." These two sentiments have colored my career as a writer. I struggle to be taken seriously, mostly in my own head. The anger I feel always fades before the shame that I am not better. The knowledge that we all die alone doesn't stop me from wishing someone would remember what I said before I went. And then there is the horror that I care. Continue reading
Posted 6 days ago at Surrender, Dorothy
It is the first cool night of fall, and always, I remember how much I feared the cold when I was starving myself. When I was eighteen, and my boyfriend went off to college and there were no texts or cell phones, and all I had was a Jimmy Buffet CD and letters to warm me. When I was nineteen, I got a tattoo of the sun on my inner heel to warm me. I was still starving myself. My grandfather rendered the sun in copper, and now I own it but don't know where to hang it. I don't fear winter in the same way, because I am not that girl anymore. I know how the story plays out, at least as far as the second act. I know the protagonist is no longer starving. But there is still fear. That I won't be relevant. That I won't be heard. That I'm what I fear: Just another small life on the rock that burns and then flames out for the sake of warming the planet for one second in an ocean of years. It gets colder and the rock turns, but at least I am better equipped to face the turn. Because I have grown. And I am no longer starving myself. Continue reading
Posted Sep 6, 2014 at Surrender, Dorothy
I know.
Toggle Commented Sep 3, 2014 on More Than Two at Surrender, Dorothy
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I almost heard you saying that ...
Toggle Commented Sep 3, 2014 on More Than Two at Surrender, Dorothy
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Her hair flies back in the wind because the motor's almost shot in Vicki the convertible so the top stays down now. It has to be helped up like an old man out of a chair, and most of the time, we don't feel like dealing with it. We leave ourselves exposed to sun and sky and wind because the sun feels good when it's not raining. We are talking about growing up, and I tell her the thing my dad told me about SEEs, Significant Emotional Experiences, the thing I put in THE OBVIOUS GAME, how you have to have two SEEs before you can really contribute to society, how some people go their whole lives without having two. You need two to understand other people's anger. "You've had your two already," I say. "When Grandpa died and when Bella and Petunia and Buttonsworth died." "Did you have two when you were a kid?" "Yeah. When Grandma got cancer. And then when it came back. And then when my gran died. All that happened before I left for college." "I've had more than that," she says, and her hair whips again around her face, her eyes shaded with sunglasses. "What was the other one?" "When Ka'Vyea got shot." Oh. Yes. I've been wondering how that affected her. We haven't talked about it. I've been waiting. She was such a trooper every visit to the hospital, and I have never been so proud of my daughter as when she walked into a room to see her friend with a feeding tube in his nose unable to sit up in bed and act completely natural, to play Connect Four instead of staring in shock at the machines surrounding him. "Yes. That was really scary, wasn't it?" She nods. There's more to... Continue reading
Posted Sep 3, 2014 at Surrender, Dorothy
Here I've spent the first half of 2014 thinking I could no longer run giveaways for THE OBVIOUS GAME on Goodreads because it was published in 2013. (The dropdown in the author tools area only give you options for the year prior to your pub date and the year of your pub date.) I was sad, because Goodreads giveaways are such a win/win. They are inexpensive for an author to run (you only pay for the books and shipping) and they provide exposure as each sign-up adds the book to the signee's to-read shelf, thus giving the author and the book exposure she wouldn't otherwise have had. Lately most of my dealings with THE OBVIOUS GAME have been either asking people to review it or answering emails from people who love people with eating disorders (in which really what can I say but, "Well, I wrote an entire book about what I want to say to you now, so maybe you could read that and then let me know if you want to talk more"). The answering the emails part is really hard. Really hard. But I am really glad I at least have the book to point them to. And this is the part where I say, "Hey, if you've read THE OBVIOUS GAME, could you drop me a review on Goodreads and Amazon? It doesn't even have to be nice! Nobody likes everything." And then I follow that up by saying, "If you haven't read THE OBVIOUS GAME, mightn't you request it at your library, and if your librarian has trouble, she can contact me and I will get her the book with my author discount?" And then you might say, "But I really want to help you MORE." So of course I would smile sincerely and say,... Continue reading
Posted Sep 2, 2014 at Surrender, Dorothy
Here I've spent the first half of 2014 thinking I could no longer run giveaways for THE OBVIOUS GAME on Goodreads because it was published in 2013. (The dropdown in the author tools area only give you options for the year prior to your pub date and the year of your pub date.) I was sad, because Goodreads giveaways are such a win/win. They are inexpensive for an author to run (you only pay for the books and shipping) and they provide exposure as each sign-up adds the book to the signee's to-read shelf, thus giving the author and the book exposure she wouldn't otherwise have had. Lately most of my dealings with THE OBVIOUS GAME have been either asking people to review it or answering emails from people who love people with eating disorders (in which really what can I say but, "Well, I wrote an entire book about what I want to say to you now, so maybe you could read that and then let me know if you want to talk more"). The answering the emails part is really hard. Really hard. But I am really glad I at least have the book to point them to. And this is the part where I say, "Hey, if you've read THE OBVIOUS GAME, could you drop me a review on Goodreads and Amazon? It doesn't even have to be nice! Nobody likes everything." And then I follow that up by saying, "If you haven't read THE OBVIOUS GAME, mightn't you request it at your library, and if your librarian has trouble, she can contact me and I will get her the book with my author discount?" And then you might say, "But I really want to help you MORE." So of course I would smile sincerely and say,... Continue reading
Posted Sep 2, 2014 at Surrender, Dorothy
Recently The Writers Place in Kansas City asked me to teach a workshop. And I said yes! Here are the details: PITCHING, QUERYING AND SUBMITTING: WHAT TO KNOW ABOUT SENDING IN YOUR WRITING Saturday, 10/25, 2 – 4 PM Teaching Artist: Rita Arens What separates a good essay from a viral essay? What do you need to know before you query an agent with your memoir? How much can you expect to make with online publishing? Bring your questions and your query letters for this hands-on session. CLICK HERE TO REGISTER: $40 nonmembers / $30 members You must have a current membership to enroll at the member rate. Click here to join or renew. Tell all your friends! Continue reading
Posted Aug 28, 2014 at Surrender, Dorothy
I have only an extremely marginal understanding of relational databases. I remember being introduced to the concept of a foreign key, which basically controls all the values that reference it. I understand foreign keys like this: If humans are the most intelligent species on the planet, then X, Y, Z. What if elephants are smarter? The whole string falls apart. (Again, I may be butchering the true definition, but stay with me.) So. White privilege is kind of a foreign key. I think the reason so many white people have denied white privilege is because they are afraid of what that would mean if their whole worldview has been with or without their knowledge predicated on an invalid foreign key. What if rap music is no more dangerous than blasting Brahms? What if a resting expression is just a resting expression, no matter what color the face? What if tall is just a genetic trait and doesn't have a inherent relation to aggression? What if people are only dangerous or stupid because they really are dangerous or stupid? What if there is no way to tell from looking at a person if he or she is friend or foe? What if you couldn't be scared by a hoodie? What if we've been fooled by selective history? What if the foreign key is invalid? The whole system collapses. And only then can we rewrite the logic to represent all possibilities, and not just the prevalent one. Question everything. Continue reading
Posted Aug 26, 2014 at Surrender, Dorothy
Thank you, Neil.
Toggle Commented Aug 26, 2014 on Let the Pain Flow Through You at Surrender, Dorothy
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I start out slow, every time. My feet tend to cross over. I have the uneven soles to prove it. After a stress fracture, I realized I was doing it, so now I force my feet what feels like miles apart but is really just normal as I strive to feel my feet hit straight on their balls. Thwap, thwap, thwap. My neighborhood is hilly. The first hill always burns, but my thighs warm then on the downhill and the run starts to even out. I feel the blood rush to my legs. Hello ladies, who is here? Roll call. When the sweat comes, it tickles first. It itches. I scratch my head under my hat until it starts to flow, soaking into the short hairs at the nape of my neck. The sweat trickles slowly at first until it runs strong and is just part of me. When the humidity is close, I feel it try to strangle me. I breathe carefully, siphoning the air. It comes only with effort, and my legs scream for what it brings, oxygen. Relief. The uphills now, they're like biking. After I met my husband, he taught me to conserve energy, to shift down with the same energy. Running is like that. The humidity is a hill, and I have to shift down just to keep moving. The heat is an animal looking for my jugular. I turn away. Sometimes, when it's so hot, I realize I could go down. I'm forty, and it's over 90 degrees, and my husband is traveling on a job. There is nobody here but me to take care of her. You can't run through heat. But I want to. I'm annoyed I didn't start this when I was young and stronger. But I'm her mother. I can't... Continue reading
Posted Aug 25, 2014 at Surrender, Dorothy
*snort*
Toggle Commented Aug 22, 2014 on Let the Pain Flow Through You at Surrender, Dorothy
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Here are some more examples of how the media could walk a straighter line when portraying people: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2014/08/14/media-black-victims_n_5673291.html
Toggle Commented Aug 20, 2014 on Let the Pain Flow Through You at Surrender, Dorothy
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Good examples. Thanks for sharing them.
Toggle Commented Aug 20, 2014 on Let the Pain Flow Through You at Surrender, Dorothy
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:) good
Toggle Commented Aug 20, 2014 on Let the Pain Flow Through You at Surrender, Dorothy
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AND DOESN'T IT SUCK THAT THOUGHT WENT THROUGH MY HEAD? FUCK. That I might worry someone might think I was being condescending and calling you well-spoken. This is going all when I named my cat again.
Toggle Commented Aug 20, 2014 on Let the Pain Flow Through You at Surrender, Dorothy
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And not because you are black, for those who are new here. Because we are sisters in grammarly justice.
Toggle Commented Aug 20, 2014 on Let the Pain Flow Through You at Surrender, Dorothy
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After the #IfTheyGunnedMeDown hashtag started getting traction, I saw the other picture of Mike Brown on the news. I think that's what we do. We keep talking and talking and talking. And those of us who are not afraid to talk to each other about it publicly just keep doing that, too. In other news, I love that you used the correct "effect change."
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"I'm glad I had lunch with you guys today," I said. "I'm having trouble with my anxiety because of what's happening in Ferguson." That we were well into our lunch was not lost on me. It's all I can think of when I see other people: that I want to talk about it, that it's like the sixties out there, that it's still happening and so many white people still think the protests are unfounded at worst or an overreaction at best. But I didn't immediately launch into it because of my white privilege. I wanted to talk about it but I waited for my window, even knowing these friends felt the same way that I did about it all. Because I wasn't positive they'd want to talk about it. She asked me why I didn't write about the anxiety. I thought to myself because Stacy Morrison already did it so well, and also because I don't want to co-opt the pain for myself when it is not my pain. My pain is watching their pain, and it seems selfish to claim my pain. I didn't say that part, though. I don't know why. I feel like I felt after Hurricane Katrina when I saw all those black people standing on bridges, shielding their babies from the hot sun, squished into that dome, stuck. Just. Stuck. And then white people focused on any little bad thing those black people did while they were stuck instead of pulling them out faster. She called me this morning to say she'd been thinking of our conversation. We'd talked about how there is racial tension and even genocide going on all over the world. We'd talked about the Holy Land and Ukraine. We talked about this again, and I wanted to cry and I... Continue reading
Posted Aug 20, 2014 at Surrender, Dorothy
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I had some hard conversations at BlogHer '14 with white women who thought the women of color at Voices of the Year were exaggerating their feelings of otherness. It's true, world: White people still think people of color are making this stuff up. The events of this week in Ferguson, Missouri, once again magnify the truth: My friends of color are not exaggerating. White people may not see it because we are not treated this way, but stigma/skepticism/suspicion is still their reality in 2014. We can wish it weren't true. We can pretend it isn't true. Or we can amplify what is true. We can continue to insist on the education of our white colleagues and friends and strangers about how we intentionally or unintentionally are contributing to the racism problem we have boiling in this country. We can continue to insist on change. If you're confused about what I'm talking about, click here. It's time to share what's being said. Here are some posts written about race this week that I believe are worth reading. Please amplify them. The Ferguson Shooting Has Me Scared for My Son by Janene Davis Affected by Karen Walrond #IfTheyGunnedMeDown Hashtag Calls Out Media's Portrayal of Black People by Betty Fokker Racial Bias, Police Brutality and the Dangerous Act of Being Black by Kristen Howerton Tonight my friend and colleague Feminista Jones has organized a 90-city National Moment of Silence for Mike Brown. Details are here. The gathering for Kansas City is at the Plaza fountain. Gather at 6 Central, moment of silence is 6:20. Wear red. I would be there but we are headed to a preplanned family reunion tonight. If you can't see things on Facebook, here are the details: Peaceful vigils honoring the innocent lives lost and pay respect to those... Continue reading
Posted Aug 14, 2014 at Surrender, Dorothy
Last night I made my best friend meet me twenty miles closer to my house than she originally intended because on Saturday, I broke my ass. Okay, I don't know if I broke it, because I can't get in to my doctor until Thursday, but I fell backwards on tile and bounced, so let's just say it together: OW OW OW OW OW. Also, I really hate driving right now. I tell you this partly in an obvious bid for sympathy (hello, I'm supposed to be training for another half-marathon, not trying to type with my butt on three pillows) and also partly to maybe explain the following, in that about 80 percent of my brain is thinking about the pain in my butt at all times, leaving only 20 percent left to process actual thought. Her: Have you friended your fifth-grade teacher on Facebook? Me: What? Why? Her: She's, like, awesome on there. Me: My mom was friends with her ... sister? Cousin? That's crazy, since they didn't live in the same town or anything. What was the teacher's name? Martha? Her: Mary. Me: I think her cousin's name was Martha. (pause) Me: Oh, wait. Maybe that was Jesus. Continue reading
Posted Aug 12, 2014 at Surrender, Dorothy
OMG, LETTERS.
Toggle Commented Aug 7, 2014 on When Talk Gets Cheap at Surrender, Dorothy
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