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Rita Arens
My name is Rita Arens. I like to write. A lot. Many pages.
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Since I last posted, I've had a lot of tumultuous change. Suffice it to say my car was totaled, among other things. I'm fine, though, and will continue to be fine, because I'm the protagonist in my own story, and protagonists with no obstacles are boring and nobody likes them. I'm so not boring this month! Here's one of the reasons! I was chosen as the Missouri chapter of the Society of Children's Book Writers & Illustrators (SCBWI)'s September featured author. This is a huge deal for me, as I love everything SCBWI does and so appreciate their efforts to provide education, networking and exposure for their members. Here's an excerpt of the interview: Where and when do you write? There are two bits to writing – the actual writing and the thinking about the writing. When I’m really stuck somewhere in the physical writing, it becomes difficult for me not to think about it incessantly. I do my actual writing in my local library one night a week after my day job. I usually bring my daughter along so she can do her homework while I write. I’ve tried writing late at night, in the early morning, on road trips, in cafes on Saturday afternoons, and I can’t focus unless I’m in the library and still relatively fresh mentally. This means I don’t get very far very fast, but thinking about writing a lot when I’m not actually in the library helps me to be very ready when the opportunity finally arises. To read the rest, go to Missouri's chapter page. Another reason! I'll be speaking at KidLitCon in Wichita, Kansas, in October. And I'm bringing my daughter to a conference for the first time. Moments. Come and see me if you're in the area -- I've seen the... Continue reading
Posted Aug 27, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
In my last post, I talked about how my cat Kizzy has been a dick lately. Shortly after I wrote that post, I took Kizzy to the hospital for a week. Last year he had PU surgery because he kept getting blocked -- he couldn't pee -- which can be fatal within 48 hours. After the surgery, I thought he couldn't get blocked again. I was wrong. So we took him in last Monday and he was blocked and they catheterized him and kept him for an entire week in the hopes that he would heal after being unblocked and flushed before the catheter was removed and thus would not form so much scar tissue. I went and picked him up this Monday after we got back from #BlogHer16. He's on a completely wet food diet, he has a new water fountain he won't drink out of, he's offered only bottled water out of various containers. We are trying everything we can. I'm trying not to be pessimistic, but I'm not feeling like he's out of the woods yet. I'm feeling like all I can do at this point is try to manage my fear and anxiety about my cat, and I'm struggling. If he blocks again, even on the bottled water and the wet food diet and after the surgery, there's nothing more to be done. It's only been a few years since the epic struggle of Sir Charles Buttonsworth with megacolon, another fatal and impossible condition that we couldn't do anything about. This is weighing heavily on me. Also weighing heavily: I thought he was just being a dick instead of trying to tell me in the only way possible he didn't feel well. So I take this away: When people or animals are assholes, consider first whether... Continue reading
Posted Aug 10, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
So lately Kizzy has been a bit of a feline asshole. I think it's because we're almost out of his expensive prescription cat food and normally he has his bowl refreshed several times a day. Due to present circumstances, he is eating leftovers. It just goes to show: Anyone can develop First World problems. Even a pound cat. So today he tried to show me his vampire teeth, which is what we call the face he does when he's ready to fuck your shit up and he kind of half opens his mouth so just his bottom canines show like he thinks he's Jack Nicholson. I was all, "No, cat, I worked all day and ran five miles and rode a horse and you can kiss my big white ass if you think you're going to bite me, but he honed in like I was Buttonsworth and this was the Sumo Olympics of catdom. So I blew in his face and put him in time out, because that is what adults do. Although I may have yelled, "I am the alpha," at the same time because I have too many damn people in my life right now who seem to forget I am the boss of me. Including my little black cat. So. Did you have a shitty day? Take a deep breath and fill your lungs, then scream, "I am the alpha!" You'll feel better. Trust me. Continue reading
Posted Jul 29, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
anytime, baby
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When I was younger, I was always positive I was right. The older I get, I realize all our politics are the same. Only the hero is different. My father has a saying: "Sometimes you're the windshield, and sometimes you're the bug." That echoes in my mind almost daily. I don't relish being either, but I get we are all both, depending on the situation. With the national events of the past few weeks and my own usual tendency to absorb emotion wherever I find it, I've grown agitated. It primes me to be the asshole. That's not a great feeling, to realize you actually want to turn people away at the door, just because you're mad. That's where I've been, though. Even though that's not how I see myself. It's disconcerting to realize you could be the stone stuck in a craw, the branch across a road. But we all believe we are heroes of our own stories, and that's important to remember as we move through the world. Everyone thinks he or she is right. And therein lies the rub. Continue reading
Posted Jul 15, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
"Mama," she said, "eventually I suppose I'll have to get SnapChat and Instagram because it would be weird if I didn't have it. But I'm waiting, because I'm afraid I'll get caught up in it." I looked guiltily at my phone. "You're wise," I said, wishing I were as smart as she is at twelve. "There's a lot of danger in caring too much whether strangers like you." Continue reading
Posted Jul 9, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
Sometimes, I feel like a goat. Bleating. Because I am so useless. Last year at BlogHer, I went to a panel about white privilege, among other things. I was one of the fewer than 10 white people there, and I was ashamed. Not to be there, but that more white people weren't. I should've written about it then. I don't blog so much anymore. But that's not an excuse. It's not intentional, not to write. It's that with all the bullshit that's gone on in the past two years (the past 1,000 years), I'm starting to wonder what people think of me. I haven't been able to achieve any change. Not that I have delusions of grandeur. It's just ... am I just a goat? It is even privileged to wonder such a thing, to think my voice should matter. I want to speak, to show solidarity. But I also recognize that to speak is to interrupt, at this point. I don't want to interrupt. I don't want to bleat. I don't want to be silent, lest that be seen as acceptance. I sit in audiences, listening to my friends speak of racial inequality. I sit to bear witness and show my face. I'm not sure how my friends interpret my presence. I hope they see me as supporting them, not inserting myself. I find it hard to believe we haven't come farther. I find it hard to believe we've come this far. I still can't fathom any person ever thought it was okay to "own" another person. Sentient beings can't be owned. I won't let my daughter ever forget that. We, white people, we screwed up so bad for so long. But we are all human beings. Damn. Continue reading
Posted Jul 8, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
No way! Nice to meet you. :)
Toggle Commented Jun 23, 2016 on Twenty Minutes Ago at Surrender, Dorothy
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"So you're turning 21 tomorrow?" I asked. The kid had high color in his cheeks and a scar on his arm. He threw the rope with the strength of the young. "Yeah," he said. He was from up East staying in his folks' Florida condo for the summer, mating on the parasail boat. "So that makes me exactly twice your age," I said, toeing the dock. "I feel old." Sometimes I fool cashiers if I have my hat on, but only until they look into my eyes and see the years and the learning and the lines. "But in twenty minutes, he'll be where you are," said the other mate, the older mate who hailed from Kansas City, too. We'd parasailed with him twice before. I liked him. He felt like home, even in the boat. I glanced at him, confused. "Remember, twenty minutes ago, when you were 21?" And I did. I glanced at my 12-year-old daughter. Twenty minutes ago. Yeah. "In twenty minutes, he'll be your age," the mate from KC said. "Twenty years goes by in a flash." I wrapped that up and put it aside in my head, because it was so true. Battened down the hatches for twenty minutes more. Continue reading
Posted Jun 18, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
Recently someone from Quotes Rain contacted me so I set up a profile. It has a tool that makes creating quotes more top-of-mind. (There are lots of ways to put text on pictures, and I know a lot of them, but it's reminding myself to do such things that is the kicker.) Anyway, I created two quotes. I will probably keep updating these from time to time, but if you have a favorite quote and would like your name mentioned in the quoteboard (submitted by, etc.), please leave info in the comments! I leave tomorrow for New York for Spine Out. So nervous! Continue reading
Posted Jun 7, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
Last week I met with my trusted reader, my former thesis advisor, or the guy who I can hear say, "I liked parts of it" without wanting to kill him, about PARKER CLEAVES. The nice thing about having a good reader is you have someone to draw out of you what you were trying to say (and failing to say) in the first place. Sometimes I feel like it's pointless to try to write novels with a full-time job and a family, but really, it's the same task whether there are other things in your life or not. At this juncture, I only really write once a week for an hourish on this novel. I write for work, I'm writing NOW, for God's sake, but that's different. This doesn't even make sense and I'm typing it on an obsolete app that for some reason is still on my phone. However, I pointed out to my reader and to myself, I think about my books all the time. Tonight I tried something new. I wrote out the 5-6 problems we identified. I numbered them. I picked (my energy being low) what I thought would be easiest to attack and started going through the ms dribbling sentences here and there like melted popsicles with the corresponding number. (Aided by visuals -- it was an already marked-up draft, so I had to highlight the dribble sentences literally in pink.) I wrote until the iPhone duck quacked that the little angel's riding lesson was over and it was time to regroup at home for dinner. I think I wrote maybe 300 words tonight. I'm sure this lame post is at least as long as what I wrote. This is how it goes sometimes. You fight for the feedback, then you fight for the writing... Continue reading
Posted May 31, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
What an amazing thing! If you're in New York and want to come, here's an evite for you. Feel free to forward, invite, spread the news. I'd love to see you. Continue reading
Posted May 11, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
So, this happened last week: And then I died and went to heaven. The end. Continue reading
Posted May 6, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
I spent the winter full of Library Tuesdays working on revising my second novel, THE BIRTHRIGHT OF PARKER CLEAVES, after realizing I hated it and it wasn't ready for query AT ALL. I ended up doing the usual cutting of 10,000 words and rearranged whole sections and considered dumping the entire thing because ohmygodIsuckatnovels. It's a little short right now, but I'm at that point where I don't know what it needs to edge it into recommended length. And then there's that part of me that wonders why those rules even apply when so many people read books digitally and word count was probably made up by someone more looking for the sweet spot in printing costs rather than pondering how many words it takes to tell a good story. Then my mind goes into an existential crisis about the relevance of anyone's words long-term and it's time for a snack. Last weekend while we were driving home from my MIL's house in Cedar Rapids, I elected to sit in the back seat, determined to make the final pass through my printed-out manuscript before I hand it off to a trusted reader. I didn't know what I'd find. Before I printed it, I moved so many sections around I wasn't sure if I'd need to write more connective tissue or what. It surprised me that so many scenes that I mushed together out of three or four little orphaned pieces chapters apart made any sense at all. Obviously I kept thinking she should really talk to her dad again more than once but didn't write enough in any one place to have a scene. This writing thing is stupid hard. I've spent the past three years working on this novel. There are parts I really like, and then I'm certain... Continue reading
Posted Apr 19, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
Today I'm over on talking about tattoos and parenting. Please come on over! Continue reading
Posted Apr 5, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
(Editor's Note: I met Bonnie years ago via the blogosphere and love her work. I hope you'll enjoy her post on body image and motherhood, and please check out her collaborative video project on The Shape of a Mother. - Rita) When my daughter was born almost fourteen years ago, I was utterly unprepared for the extent of physical changes that would come along with the pregnancy. Afterwards, I felt torn between the awe and pride I should have been feeling for what my body did, and the shame I actually felt for looking nothing like the pictures I saw in magazines. I assumed I was the only one dealing with this so I kept it to myself for a long time. And then one day, almost four years later, I happened to catch a glimpse of another mom’s belly and in that instant I knew this was actually a totally normal thing. It was such a relief to be able to let go of that self-hate I had spent so much time focused on and I wanted to make that knowledge available for women worldwide. I wanted everyone – mothers, women who aren’t mothers, and men – to know mama bodies are normal. So I started The Shape of a Mother. It’s been just about a decade now and I’ve published the stories of about 2,500 moms in that time. Here are the top five things I’ve learned working with women and body image. We’re harder on ourselves than on anyone else. Probably the most common comment people leave on the submissions that are posted is something like “Wow! You’re my body twin! But you look way better than I do!” Logically, if two people look that much alike, we can assume they probably both look equally lovely. And,... Continue reading
Posted Mar 22, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
October 17, 2015 - complete third half-marathon December 18, 2015 - 5:56 pm - complete hour-long cross-training workout at the gym December 18, 2015 - 11 pm - fall hard on ceramic tile in my kitchen December 19, 2015 - diagnosed with broken fibula January 6, 2016 - surgery to put plate and five screws February 11, 2016 - surgeon clears me to start transitioning to weight-bearing on injured leg February 12, 2016 - start physical therapy March 7, 2016 - cleared to use nonimpact cardio machines other than stationary bike March 11, 2016 - today As I spent countless hours this winter lying in my recliner with my leg propped up on three pillows and wrapped in ice, I discovered A&E's Fit to Fat to Fit show. I have never watched The Biggest Loser, because I don't like the format very much. I never miss an episode of Fit to Fat to Fit, though, because I need to watch those personal trainers who gained hella weight return to the gym. I myself am returning to the gym, and it's hard. I started working out when I was in high school and developing a pretty gnarly eating disorder. I've had to break the mental connection between calories in/calories out because if I do that I have a tendency to both overexercise and overeat. The brass ring that's so hard to catch is figuring out how to exercise the right amount without always tying it to weight loss. For all of my adult life, I've been terrified of breaking a leg because it renders exercise almost impossible. I always assumed I would blow up like a blimp if I couldn't exercise. And that didn't happen. I did gain probably five to eight pounds, but it's hard to tell if that's because... Continue reading
Posted Mar 11, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
"That's what I miss ..." Once the pleasantries were over, that's what they kept returning to. My girl and I were sitting in the booth behind them at Panera for two hours. My daughter had her headphones in, her attention buried in homework. All I had to do was busywork, so I did what I suspect every novelist does: I eavesdropped. I couldn't see her and only the back of his head, his white hair carefully oiled and combed. They talked about what they liked to do (movies, yes, bars, no), their past careers (both looked to be past 65), their families. How loved ones had died. That's why she chose him on the dating website, she said. Because he'd been married a long time, and his wife had died. She thought that made him safer, that he's understand what she'd been through. This was her first online date. They both referred to "my husband" and "my wife" without irony or awkwardness. The part that crushed me and lifted me up was when they would be in the middle of a story and laugh and say, "You know, that's what I miss, laughing with someone." And the other would agree, and then they'd go on. They went on for two hours and I kept glancing at the back of his head and being so happy for both of them, especially in the end when she asked him to please contact her again. They stood, and I finally saw them: her, a cheery looking white woman with bright lipstick and him, a tall white man with a plaid button-down shirt and skin that spoke of outside work. They hugged. What courage it takes at any age to put ourselves out there, to meet someone new. With my husband traveling for work... Continue reading
Posted Feb 28, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
I went to see my doctors last Thursday. I was five weeksish post-surgery. The resident is more conservative. He came in and said to keep all weight off until six weeks post-surgery, then take 2-3 weeks to transition to full weight-bearing with the boot. He left. I cried. I am so tired of crutches. Then the surgeon came in. He said the X-ray looked fine, transition to full weight-bearing within a week, lose the boot after that, get some PT, come back in five weeks. In other words, he left it up to me. I love you, Dr. Surgeon. My husband is back to traveling for work 75%, so leaving it up to me gets very real very fast. Walking (or crutching) out of the doctor's office last week, I felt something I haven't felt since December: agency. I'm ready to make my own decisions. This broken leg has made me into a teenager again in all the worst ways. I can't choose when I leave the house. I have to ask someone to drive me somewhere. I can't go for a run or walk. I've found myself retreating to headphones and NIN. To have my current state of recovery in my own hands feels surreal. I decide when to stop using the crutches. When to transition to shoes. When to start physical therapy. These are important decisions if I want to run again, but to not feel infantilized is huge. Today I put about 50-70% weight on my right foot while using one crutch and cleaning my house. My ankle is sore but fine. My psyche is better than ever. I feel like an adult again. I can't stress enough how important that feels. Continue reading
Posted Feb 14, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
SHINGLES?! You poor thing!
Toggle Commented Feb 11, 2016 on So Mad We Are Getting Old at Surrender, Dorothy
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Oh, I am so not looking forward to that part. I just turned 42 and my girl is 11.
Toggle Commented Feb 10, 2016 on So Mad We Are Getting Old at Surrender, Dorothy
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A girlfriend brought me lunch yesterday since I still can't drive. We've known each other since our kids were babies, I suppose almost twelve years now. Over soup we talked about everything from work to our health -- we both had a rough 2015. "You know," she said, "it's true. You don't realize how when you have your health, you have everything, until you don't." Yeah. We're young-old, both in our early forties, still running (when not sidelined by said health), still trying to eat healthy. Nobody's thrown in the aging towel or anything. But suddenly in the past few years, the conversations of our friend group have morphed from potty training to WTF did I really get tan lines on my forehead wrinkles? Initially, the talk was more that of shocked realization -- the first discovery of a gray hair, the first mammogram, the first night sweat. I think we're in the anger phase now. And I wish I were more tranquil about it. It's true I've been dying since I was born, that's the way it goes, circle of life. The problem is that now I realize it. My hands on the keyboard wear the same wedding ring but they aren't even remotely the hands my husband held at our wedding in 2001. I remember at the time looking down at my hands and wondering what they would look like when they started to age. And now I know. Last night I was trying to explain to my mother, who is here driving me to appointments while my husband is back to traveling for work, what I've learned about getting up off the floor with a broken leg. "You have to flip over like a bug, then you get on your knees and you can get up that... Continue reading
Posted Feb 10, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
Tomorrow I'll be 42. With a broken leg. Although I suspect it's not really broken anymore, just faking it so I'll slide up and down the stairs three times a day on my butt just so Fate can laugh her ass off. When I first reported my injury, my friend Stacy exclaimed, "Think of the books you'll read!" She was right. I have read great books. I've come back to the revision process on PARKER CLEAVES after hitting the surgery wall. I've learned to stand up from the ground on one leg. I've learned why people get addicted to Oxycontin because it's an amazing drug. And I'm so ready for this to be over. Yes, broken leg, you've taught me patience the hard way and that I can carry almost anything in a backpack. I get it. I learned my lesson. I look on 42 as the year I learn to walk and run again. Please? Continue reading
Posted Feb 4, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy
You have time. You do. NORWAY 8K from Martin Heck | Timestorm Films on Vimeo. Continue reading
Posted Feb 1, 2016 at Surrender, Dorothy