Mai, even without knowing anyone in Japan, it is heartbreaking so I can only reach out from far away and tell you that I am virtually hugging you. Most of us have bad memories, the ones we need to be able to shut out just to continue functioning, and to have these forced into the open where they need to be examined and reexamined before we can again put them into that holding place in our heart and head is always a challenging time. It is also part of being human and of your innate kindness. My heart is with you.

These are great reasons and I totally agree - thanks for articulating these so well! Now back to some relevant reading!