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ytrozs
Down the barber shop.
You got to pick it, pack it, fire it up. Come along, and take a hit from the bong.
Interests: cars
Recent Activity
Over the weekend, my son, who is 6, discovered the joy of leftover pizza. This was not a smooth process, as could be expected. He claimed to want hot pizza. In the past, he's been fine with cold pizza, but really wanted something hot. So, I told him to microwave... Continue reading
Posted Sep 29, 2014 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
I'm not sure what to do anymore. The kids really want JC and I to get back together. I'm increasingly thinking that's impossible. I had a chat with her on Sunday (Mother's Day - hah). I told her that I don't know how to move forward with anything because, at... Continue reading
Posted May 13, 2014 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
JC: I am going to ask you something, and if you don't want to answer, then don't. But if you do, I'd like you to think about it before you do... Do you still *feel* love towards me, or is it a memory of loving me? And do you, as... Continue reading
Posted Mar 12, 2014 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
Heading in to the parenting info class, a requirement of the divorce process. I've been thinking about what I wrote a couple days ago. And I have to wonder, what can JC do that isn't going to make me angry? If she doesn't get a job, I'll be frustrated that... Continue reading
Posted Jan 26, 2014 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
Got a little encouragement to come back and blog. The story so far . . . JC had a major relapse. It was bad enough that she left. As in left. Me, the kids, everything, just . . . left. For three days, I spent every waking moment trying to... Continue reading
Posted Jan 24, 2014 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
Ugh. It was all just little things when I left. Baggage can't be overweight at curb check unless you're flying first class. Couldn't find space in the economy lot, ended up in the garage. Checked bag at the counter, but overweight payment took forever, because it's outside the normal checkin... Continue reading
Posted Oct 10, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
Finally had a major talk about . . . stuff . . . last night. She understands why I get angry about her issues. But it's not helpful to her. I don't know how to react any other way, now. Why? Because there's nothing I can really do except ride... Continue reading
Posted Sep 30, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
I take that back. The worst part is, I'm starting to feel like I'm wasting my time. I haven't the slightest idea how to deal with that. I spent a good chunk of my lesson today just punching bag.
Toggle Commented Sep 29, 2013 on No Change at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
Feels like old habits. And not wanting to put in the effort. The worst part right now is, I don't believe anything she tells me. I told her basically what I wrote here, and she had some response but I didn't even bother to listen. It was excuses, not explanations. I just don't know what to do.
Toggle Commented Sep 29, 2013 on No Change at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
My wife is still wrapped up in her eating disorder, but she doesn't seem to know it. It's taken a new form, but the effects on me and probably on the kids are the same: she cares more about the eating disorder than she does about her family. How do... Continue reading
Posted Sep 28, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
Found out today that her parents were more than able to abandon the dog for a weekend in New York. Pity the same could not be said for attending to the needs of their daughter. Nope. I'm done. No, fuck this, I'm so done. Continue reading
Posted Sep 1, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
Still awake. Waiting for sleep to roll in like the tide in San Diego last week. The one that almost crushed me as I tried to body surf it out. This is my life now. Waiting. Waiting to feel like the worst is over. Waiting for the next step. Waiting... Continue reading
Posted Aug 3, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
I'm reading Anathem by Neil Stephenson for probably the hojillionth time. I've lost track. I am just fascinated by this book. Now that I've read it so many times, I'm starting to track in on some very interesting, possibly accidental, ways that the author built the book. For instance, where... Continue reading
Posted Jul 28, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
Around our dinner table, we play a social game using Chat Pack. JC or I asks a question, and everyone gets a chance to answer. Usually it's things like, "If you could only see one color apart from black and white, what would it be?" Or, "What's your dream vacation?"... Continue reading
Posted Jul 8, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
My wife is having severe flashbacks about . . . well . . . very bad things. If you know me, you know about what level of bad it has to be for me to not relay it in a blog post. Last night's was particularly disturbing. She got to... Continue reading
Posted Jul 1, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
I've almost said it a dozen times in the last 24 hours. I walked, for over an hour, on Sunday morning to try to get past my anger, and get to what was underneath. What was underneath was hurt and fear. And when I got to the point where I could express that as rationally as I could, well . . . that's what I was met with. 88 fucking days of her getting the goddamn *privilege* of having nothing to do but work on her issues. And 8 weeks out, I'm just to fucking be better. Because . . . I was afforded that privilege as well? Because . . . I'm supposed to forget the last 18 months? Because . . . oh . . . wait . . . . Because I'm the fucking rock. Now I remember.
Toggle Commented Jun 18, 2013 on Out at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
My concerns and my feelings were met with condescension and frustration. I guess, 8 weeks out of rehab, I'm supposed to be able to miraculously stop identifying patterns that led, in the past, to relapse. In other words, my feelings are insignificant, and shouldn't exist. Of course, part of her... Continue reading
Posted Jun 17, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
So, which is it? The reason for this step backwards? Is it because I allowed you to talk me into letting you speak with Mommy Dearest on the phone? Or is it because I had the gall to fly away and do my job for a week? Continue reading
Posted Jun 16, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
So, I'm on my first business trip since January. It's good to be away finally. I know that probably sounds selfish, or unfeeling, or whatever. The simple fact is that I have not truly had this level of personal time since I was in Turkey last November. Quick aside: when... Continue reading
Posted Jun 10, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
Man, I am so tired of summer already. Kids are just going berserk, it's hot as hell outside. At least next week I get to go to Boston. Which brings me to the point of this message. This will be the first time I've left my wife alone with the... Continue reading
Posted Jun 5, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
So, JC called the Oxygen Thieves this weekend (all according to our agreement), mostly to head off the coming questions of what the July birthdays will want. She still things Mommy Dearest is absurd. And MD has already started drifting back into her usual state of denial and focusing blame... Continue reading
Posted Jun 3, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
I know I said I'd report back on Friday. Time got away from me. She did indeed ask her therapist for advice, and got a name. Called for an appointment, but the ansaphone picked up, so at the moment, it's just that far. But. Progress. Can't ask for more. Progress,... Continue reading
Posted May 25, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
I'll let you know when they've graduated to oxygen thieves. I should say that JC approves of my classifying them as The Others. Beyond that. I'm glad that Mommy Dearest is losing credibility with JC. But I'm not sure what it's going to take to convince me that the danger has past. That's about the only thing that will get me to drop my guard.
Toggle Commented May 24, 2013 on Quiet Day at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
Call the Midwife provided entertainment and pause for thought. Talked about JC's day. Apparently, there's a husband who needs a little lesson on how to support a spouse with an eating disorder. Drinks may be in order. Possibly accompanied by a minor bar brawl, if I'm lucky. Talked about my... Continue reading
Posted May 23, 2013 at Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You
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