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Interests: Reading, cooking, reading about cooking, naval gazing, wine, and searching for an occasional hour to myself.
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This letter was written and mailed in response to a mother's plea for help for her son. If you're interested in participating, details can be found on Letters for Noah Dear Noah – Being bullied sucks, doesn’t it? It’s sucks... Continue reading
Posted Jan 30, 2013 at Just Breathe...and Notice
It's been a long time since I've written about life with Asperger's or learning disabilities or childhood anxiety. It's been a long time since I've had much that I needed or wanted to say -- we were in a good... Continue reading
Posted Oct 27, 2012 at Just Breathe...and Notice
A few weeks ago I was sitting in the (interminably long!) car-line at Ean's school. We were having one of those awesome September afternoon storms: sheets of rain, sky-splitting bolts of lightning, and car-rattling thunder. I had a stack of... Continue reading
Posted Oct 8, 2012 at Just Breathe...and Notice
Ean's foray into 5th grade has been a bit bumpy and yesterday was his first day with a new set of teachers. Ean's first assignment, on his first day with his new teachers, was to read a brief story and... Continue reading
Posted Sep 19, 2012 at Just Breathe...and Notice
I often have a weird approach/avoidance relationship with some of the things I want to write about. Not so much about the easy-breezy stuff (though I don't write much of that anymore), but about the Real Stuff. For me the... Continue reading
Posted Aug 8, 2012 at Just Breathe...and Notice
Oh boy -- do I ever get the whole "character flaw" versus "is this really something out of my control" conflict!!! I lived that hell for YEARS before I finally accepted that my anxiety and OCD were NOT simply a function of a pathetically weak will. But until then? My GOD the shame and self-loathing were nearly unbearable. Getting a diagnosis was life-changing for me -- not only because I got the proper help, but because I was finally able to separate my character from my condition. Naming something is a powerful thing. After my diagnosis, the behaviors associated with my condition (obsessive thoughts, compulsive checking, extreme sensory sensitivity, irritability, etc.) were suddenly no longer character flaws and proof that I was a shitty mother/all-around asshat. Instead, they became symptoms of a disease that needed management and care. Once named, the disease became the enemy and I fought against that instead of expending all that energy beating myself up for having it.
Toggle Commented Jun 5, 2012 on Y'all Are My Bible at the modernity ward
Pun intended. Heh. So I know I'm woefully late to this party, but I've been all indecisive and angsty about whether or not I wanted to share my thoughts on the Time kerfuffle. It's funny -- I seem to have... Continue reading
Posted May 22, 2012 at Just Breathe...and Notice
A few months ago I realized that I hadn't had a physical in 5 years. Well, I didn't actually realize it a few months ago -- I knew it had been a while but it took over a year to... Continue reading
Posted Apr 24, 2012 at Just Breathe...and Notice
Ean turned 10 yesterday. Ten. Double-digits. A "tween". Don't ask him how he's feeling about this unless you want to watch him wrestle with his anxiety about how time is slipping away, each birthday representing another year lost. Another year... Continue reading
Posted Mar 27, 2012 at Just Breathe...and Notice
Twelve years ago (this week, actually!), when the internet was a nascent wobbly-legged toddler and social media was not even a twinkle in a certain Aspergian's eye, I got engaged. Rich proposed in France, or at least the most earnest... Continue reading
Posted Jan 27, 2012 at Just Breathe...and Notice
OK, so last year wasn't JUST about woeful introspection: my naval-gazing and brow-furrowed contemplation was occasionally interrupted by lighter moments. So here's what ELSE I learned in 2011: 1 - You should be paranoid when backing out of a parking... Continue reading
Posted Jan 3, 2012 at Just Breathe...and Notice
I'm not gonna lie: 2011 was not my favorite year. It was a year of losing someone very dear to me. It was a year of loneliness. It was a year of failing, time and time again, to really do... Continue reading
Posted Dec 31, 2011 at Just Breathe...and Notice
I think I've mentioned before that Ean struggles with anxiety (apple/tree, right?). His anxiety peaked last spring/summer and included both panic attacks and some very unsettling intrusive and obsessive thoughts. I did what I could to help him manage it,... Continue reading
Posted Dec 8, 2011 at Just Breathe...and Notice
Back in July I made the decision to stop my meds for OCD/anxiety. I had been taking zoloft for several years and experienced very few side effects aside from the dreaded (and common) weight gain. I started gaining weight almost... Continue reading
Posted Nov 11, 2011 at Just Breathe...and Notice
When I wrote about my writing weekend, I was so excited to articulate the feelings of authenticity and fearlessness I experienced that I neglected to share what I learned about what it means to be (and become) a writer. First... Continue reading
Posted Oct 3, 2011 at Just Breathe...and Notice
So, the writing weekend. Wow. It was so many things.... I was my typical hand-wringing self the week before leaving. It's entirely possible that I put more thought into packing my suitcase than I did into my grad-school thesis. I... Continue reading
Posted Sep 30, 2011 at Just Breathe...and Notice
After a flight time snafu, armrest-grabbing turbulence, torrential rain, and a few construction detours, I made it to Kripalu for my writing seminar. I am bunking in a room with 5 other women, sharing a communal bathroom, and sharing intimate... Continue reading
Posted Sep 24, 2011 at Just Breathe...and Notice
This is one of those stories I'll have to delete from the blogosphere someday -- hopefully before Ean gets old enough to stumble across it and wonder why I felt compelled to share the breadth and depth of his dingbattery... Continue reading
Posted Sep 21, 2011 at Just Breathe...and Notice
New blog is up! Continue reading
Posted Sep 6, 2011 at Just Breathe...and Notice
I was browsing the shelves at Barnes & Noble one afternoon last spring, looking for something that might help Ean with his Hebrew lessons. As a convert to Judaism, I am pretty ill-equipped to help him with anything more than the occasional reminder to go from right to left, NOT... Continue reading
Posted Sep 6, 2011 at An Extraordinary Ordinary Life
Look!! The kids went back to school last week: A 4th grader and a 2nd grader --- both with BOYS for teachers! As usual, I got all misty about the passage of time and how my squishy wittle babies are... Continue reading
Posted Aug 31, 2011 at Just Breathe...and Notice
I've been sort of quiet this summer. Not because I haven't had anything to say -- more because I haven't wanted to say the things that needed to be said. Cryptic much? Really, there's nothing going on. No earth-shattering revelations... Continue reading
Posted Aug 23, 2011 at Just Breathe...and Notice
ROADTRIP!!! We are heading into day 4 of Summer Vacation 2011. All family members are accounted for, there has been no significant blood loss, and we still have all four tires. So far so good!! We headed out on Saturday... Continue reading
Posted Jun 28, 2011 at Just Breathe...and Notice
Dear Spawn: First -- it goes without saying (actually, I say it every day. at least once), that I love you both very, very much. And because I love you, I am offering a few pointers to help get us... Continue reading
Posted Jun 10, 2011 at Just Breathe...and Notice
Rich just went to the store because Zoe requested pickles. How cute is he? On his way out the door he reminded me that there's no such thing as healthy store bought pickles --- thus giving birth to our first... Continue reading
Posted Jun 4, 2011 at Just Breathe...and Notice