Today I celebrate my birth. Today I celebrate my worth. While today I see before me. The murder of another innocent black child on my TV. It's said to me he is from Tennessee, which is amazing to me. Cause as I watch all this unfold I recognize, this too could have been Me. Not just me, you too it could be... It could be even a she not just a he. It didn't have to be as brutal to my sight if only one person on site had a single ounce of humanity now it's a sight I can't... Continue reading

FACTS U DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT TOO MUCH 1. If you speak too much, you will lie. 2. If you think too much, you will be depressed. 3. If you cry too much, you will lose your sight. 4. If you love too much, you will be lost. 5. If you care too much, you will be taken for granted. 6. If you play too much, you will not be taken serious often. 7. If you trust too much, you will be betrayed. 8. If you work too much, you will die of stress. 9. If you eat too much, you... Continue reading

FACTS U DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT TOO MUCH 1. If you speak too much, you will lie. 2. If you think too much, you will be depressed. 3. If you cry too much, you will lose your sight. 4. If you love too much, you will be lost. 5. If you care too much, you will be taken for granted. 6. If you play too much, you will not be taken serious often. 7. If you trust too much, you will be betrayed. 8. If you work too much, you will die of stress. 9. If you eat too much, you... Continue reading

FACTS U DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT TOO MUCH 1. If you speak too much, you will lie. 2. If you think too much, you will be depressed. 3. If you cry too much, you will lose your sight. 4. If you love too much, you will be lost. 5. If you care too much, you will be taken for granted. 6. If you play too much, you will not be taken serious often. 7. If you trust too much, you will be betrayed. 8. If you work too much, you will die of stress. 9. If you eat too much, you... Continue reading

FACTS U DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT TOO MUCH 1. If you speak too much, you will lie. 2. If you think too much, you will be depressed. 3. If you cry too much, you will lose your sight. 4. If you love too much, you will be lost. 5. If you care too much, you will be taken for granted. 6. If you play too much, you will not be taken serious often. 7. If you trust too much, you will be betrayed. 8. If you work too much, you will die of stress. 9. If you eat too much, you... Continue reading

What's the difference? They want to ban the history of slavery from school books. Well, Many people would love to ban me from my truth as well. Ban me from ever telling how I came to be, was tossed into the system and raised by the most loving woman and a misfit son to put it mildly. How some so called family can easily repeat the cycle of tossing one aside, all the while wearing a smile. As if the mother didn't do the same. Never knowing how choices made, made my life the darkest imagining come to fruition. You... Continue reading

I'm not liked cause...I stand on my morals like a guard at Buckingham Palace. The strongest soldiers dislike me cause with two simple words I can cut to their core, dismantle their ammunition and leave them defenseless. I'm not liked cause I won't support the lies being fed via social encounters. Where those who have done the most hate filled acts are now being placed on pedestals. Never having to account for those moments that left life long scares to individuals who where undeserving. I'm hated cause The truth I hold in people's character can demolish the fake face they... Continue reading

I'm not liked cause...I stand on my morals like a guard at Buckingham Palace. The strongest soldiers dislike me cause with two simple words I can cut to their core, dismantle their ammunition and leave them defenseless. I'm not liked cause I won't support the lies being fed via social encounters. Where those who have done the most hate filled acts are now being placed on pedestals. Never having to account for those moments that left life long scares to individuals who where undeserving. I'm hated cause The truth I hold in people's character can demolish the fake face they... Continue reading

The people around you are formed and are forming you without your consent. They have no idea that they're just carbon copies of those before them. Sometimes we have the strength to break these forms that bind us. Sometimes we see with our third eye and the enemy that confronts us that is growing inside. Other times we're blinded, seeing through Rose colored lenses. As with all lenses eventually one shall crack. Do people actually acknowledge the things that they do. Do they recognize the repetitive ignorance that they pass along through generations. I don't believe that patting oneself on... Continue reading

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The sun rises then sets. Memes to forget. Time passed All in a set. In the vision, you see. A win, a dream a beachfront sunset. A storm, a encore of being in regrets. Hunger, greed, salvation, pain and love. Woven to intertwine. Belief that again the sun shall arise. Continue reading

The woman who accept this behavior are normally emotionally damaged in many ways. Everyone is entitled to their opinion for sure. As am I. It's the strangest thing that when men do this it's deemed as strength and prosperous. Yet when a woman makes choices to even date 2 men. The same men who preach my Queen will call this who have more than one suitor are called how's and that's. The contradiction is so big it's suffocating. Many times I see this situation, the men are not even supporting the household. The woman are educated and working. While the... Continue reading

Pay close attention to who you call your friends. Many a time you'll find, they're only your friend as long as you give. Once they no longer need...U will see they truthfully never knew what friendship meant. I wasted a many a years thinking people where my friends, meanwhile. Those same friends did nothing other than backstab 1st chance given. I realize my mistake was, always allowing it. Instead of acknowledging the truth I made excuses for them cause I valued the so called friendship. Don't let years go by doing that when so many people who truly love and... Continue reading

When I think of you. As the moon sets before sunrise. I'd be a lie if I said I didn't cry. Though U look upon me 2 help me survive and I'm happy to be alive. The struggle is being without you, the pain still lives deep inside. Sometimes if I close my eyes I feel U right beside. Holding me up through the toughest of times. Through the moments of dought, you know...when I'm too eat it, and put on that smile. Well today I return from a long silence, as I floated weightlessly and freely a long conversation... Continue reading

The Fabulous 50'S. Your application has been accepted. Your welcome package is on its way. Your hardknocks award is being layered. Your Wild child certification is in the mail and Your Elder "chip on the shoulder" will be implated with discretion. sleep....sleeeeep... Welcome To The Club of The Faboulous 50's via nyllammar.typepad.com Continue reading

The Fabulous 50'S. Your application has been accepted. Your welcome package is on its way. Your hardknocks award is being layered. Your Wild child certification is in the mail and Your Elder "chip on the shoulder" will be implated with discretion. sleep....sleeeeep... Welcome To The Club of The Faboulous 50's Continue reading

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My life has taken on a huge change. I could have never seen this coming my way in this lifetime. This change comes at the worst time, but is a change I accept with open arms. The challenges I face wont be easy ones. There shall be big adjustments and many may think to themselves. What is going on with him? No need for fear or worry. I have come this far and I don't fear moving forward in new directions. Please be kind patient and aware that I myself have grown to understand, change is inevitable. Continue reading

My peeps who know, I been through Hell and back In My Journey's. Yet I been blessed in so many ways. I could have a cold heart due to all the insanity. Yet My love expands 1000's of miles and revisits from hearts alike. My strength is that of a Mac Truck (Eddie Mac) My Wisdom is Fueled by balance of chaste endearment. I AM THE LORDS CHILD! Forgiven for my mistakes praised for my loyalty to honor and justice for all you two should be so lucky...dont hate. Continue reading

The SOUL KITCHEN/BONJOVI http://montclair.patch.com/articles/bon-jovi-on-hand-to-open-soul-kitchen-video-104ad6a6 At the JBJ Soul Kitchen, it's all about doing what you can. Those who attend the Red Bank restaurant located in a converted garage on Monmouth Street are invited to enjoy a great meal comprised of local ingredients prepared by chefs and in exchange, the restaurant asks only that you pay what you can or work it off by volunteering at the restaurant or any number of local charitable organizations, like Lunch Break. Continue reading