I know exactly how you feel. i feel that way when my grandpa died and it was even worse when my dad died. It will be three years a week from tomorrow that my dad had passed away, and i can still hear his voice and smell him but that day it happened.....It's like everything was just suddenly blank. I had no feeling. No senses. Nothing. I guess you can say time heals all wounds but sometimes it doesn't. It'll get better, but it'll still hurt. I hope i helped. =)