Dear Julie, A friend referred me to your blog. I am so glad she did. I have 4 children , two of them have autism spectrum disorders. They are both (boy -the oldest and girl-the 3rd) high functioning (Aspergers, PDDNOS) but I can identify with you. Christmas is not so smooth sailing here either.Since my 2 are not severely autistic the reasons aren't as obvious, so my expectations run a little too high. This could be another step in my learning to cope with the stress and anxiety. Oh how I love the peace and quiet when they are all at school! It's my time to go to God with all my cares . All too slowly I am learning to trust Him. He is my greatest source of strength. Dear sweet mother of Toby and Amy, I pray blessings on you and yours. I pray that you know Him , His love , His power, His mercy and grace.