Im going to start out by saying this, I dont want to seem like one of those people just fishing for compliments but ive been fighting with these feelings for a long long time now and this seemed like the perfect place to vent. So im 24 ive never been asked on a date ive kissed 4 guys and 2 of which only wanted to sleep with me because im a virgin 1 was just a jerk useing me for rides and money and what not and the other is my best friend who i have VERY strong feelings for. Im surrounded by best friends who are college cheerleaders, pagent qeens, and all around just beautiful girls who are all size 5 and under mostly 1s and 0s. i on the other hand am rockin a size 24. So of course im gonna have the self esteem of a rock. I know i have the best personality someone can have, im smart and i have common sence lol. But as a women and anyone can back me on this you want to feel beautiful you want to hear your beautiful and ive never been that girl. I spend my days wondering not where my prince is on his white horse is, but only when will i feel beautiful when will i be happy? Not only am i a bigger girl but i wear glasses or contacts, i dont have amazing complection i have an issuse with my mouth thats caused me as of now to have 3 teeth removed and i have at least 4 more that need to go so i prefer not to smile. the deck is for sure stacked against me but like i said i know if my personality were to take human form itd leave people awe struck. I just dont understand why people have to try and make others feel less important or whatnot especially women we have enough issuse from the opposite sex we shouldnt put each other down we should help each other up. If you know someone feels terrible about themselves try everytime you see them or talk to them compliment them on anything it can be thier hair looks awesome that day or let them know it means the world to you that they are part of your life. EVERYDAY it helps belive me when i have friends tell me that they wouldnt be who they are now if i hadnt been just a grain of sand along the path of thier lives. I would like to have some feed back on my self esteem but mostly if you dont take anything away from what ive written other than a voice in your head telling you "Hey that person looks like they need a hug or a smile or just a random complement" ill be happy.